August 23, 2013
The mucosy stools didn't go away, but the screaming did subside when I took milk out of my diet. It truly was that easy. A lot of crying still continued, but I was ecstatic. At least a Mommy can do what she does best and I was able to soothe my sweet baby. I was relishing in the deep bond I was creating with my son. I would keep him close to my body wrapped in a Boba wrap and he seemed to enjoy the rise and fall of my chest with each breath I took. He was listening to my heart beat and would fall asleep to my swaying stance. Even though I was completely drained and walked around like a zombie, we were both at peace strolling around the neighbourhood with the sky so blue, sun so high and warm breeze brushing through our hair. I would whisper "I love yous" in his ear with a little smile.
After coming back from one of our rejuvenating walks, I changed my son's diaper as I normally would. My peace came crashing down and my heart sank. My throat tightened and my tears came back. Blood. There was bright red, stringy mucosy blood in the diaper. I must have been staring at it awhile, as my brain was trying to process this new information and trying to decide how to handle it.
As I mechanically wiped him up and put a new diaper with clear eyes, I all of a sudden decided that this was no big deal. It's okay, no problem ... I will accept that he has Cow's Milk Protein Allergy. The treatment for this is take out all dairy and soy from the diet. As I say to myself ... again and again ... I can do this, it's okay, no problem, I will just take out all dairy and soy from my diet and this will be fixed. Presto !